Human Me

Ghosts From The Past After New Beginnings

Ghosts from my past recently came back to make their presence known after I got out of prison and have a new beginning. The thing about my prison sentence was that I was happy to serve it. I did someone wrong. I’m also happy to move on. I did my time. Prison has lasting effects …

Click-Clack, POW!…

Currently, this prison is experiencing an institution wide Covid lockdown. There’s been confirmed cases in all of the living units, so all of us residents are strictly confined so as to stop the spread. For me, I’m confined to a wing of roughly 75 inmates and 5 service dogs in training. One of the subtle …

Strange Cravings…

Do you like ice cream? Yes. Do you like chocolate cake? Yep! Who wouldn’t? Do you like swilling pickle juice and spoonfulls of hot sauce? Plain bread covered in just condiments? Maybe not on the last bunch, but I know someone who does. But the strange cravings are real in a place like prison, where …

Transgender Hormone Replacement Therapy and Washington State Prisons: Fight For It Until My Last Day, Seriously? by Ruth Utnage

Washington States prison medical system is one of controversy, particularly at Monroe Correctional Complex in Monroe, WA. In recent years medical malpractice, deliberate indifference, potentially unnecessary inmate deaths have plagued the correctional system, many times in a very public manner just search for it on the internet and a plethora of related articles will give …

Nonstop Covid…

The evening before Thanksgiving, our prison was put on a complete lockdown over Covid. It seems that in the last 48hrs, we’ve had roughly 60 cases (out of 800) and climbing. They said another round of testing is to ensue on Monday and there’s no doubt more will be added to the positive list. It’s …

Still Most Comfortable In A Bathroom

I’m still the most comfortable in a bathroom. After 11 years in prison I have hidden anxiety that I don’t realize I am carrying until I step into my transitional house bathroom and I suddenly relax. I relax in here because it’s a confined space. It’s small than my old cell but it has all …

Learning To Live Post Release

I’ve been out of prison for almost a week now and I am trying to adjust myself into real people stuff. Things like wearing real womenswear’s and applying makeup feel natural to me, like it’s the way it was always supposed to be. Now I have to worry about leaving lipstick stains on my coffee …

Finally Out Of Prison!

Fresh out of prison. This is me at 5:30 am drinking coffee and reading a book while I order a subscription to the Seattle Times, just because I can! Freedom is great!❤️ You can expect to start seeing videos and pics on the regular from me. Until then I’m just enjoying the good life. SO …