Prison is a complicated subject for me as of late. On one hand I am thankful that I came here, but on the other, it scares the hell out of me and I hate that.

I have to admit that I love prison in the sense that I found myself here. It fostered a sense of “I cant get any lower so I might as well be me” type of attitude. If I never came here who knows how long I would have been so miserable.

The hate part comes in with a flood of answers and reasons. I am seperated from my family, there is dangers and dangerous people. Among so many other reasons to hate this place.

The good news is that I have a release date and I am not going to be here forever so I am looking forward to that.

Piece of advice for anyone out there who thinks that prison is no big deal, its not worth it.

I would rather be out there with nothing then in here.

With Love
Jeff Utnage