Human Me

A Beautiful Present by Christopher Havens

I remember having a dream last night that was particularly inspiring. I was opening up a time capsule that had been encased in caramelized popcorn. I was almost worried at what I’d find, given the life I lived. I began breaking pieces of the popcorn off, in order to get to the center.. I broke …

Comfort Foods by Christopher Havens

I once took for granted how nice it was to have the option to chew a stick of gum. Nothing is especially special about gum, hell.. there are thousands of equally simple things I can replace with the word “gum”. How about the use of a fork? A butter knife. It’s getting difficult to think …

So You’re Coming to Prison.. by Christopher Havens

When I grew up, all I had ever heard or seen about prison was that it was filled with violence, rape, killings, deceit, and a layer of politics dictated by some “convict code”. And what could anyone do to prepare themselves for such a place?  My first feeling while on the bus to prison, while …

On the Annoying Topic of Prison Fame by Christopher Havens

Well, it’s good and it’s bad… and I certainly have a case of it. First, it feels good because people think what I do is amazing, and it feels good to know that of the thousands of prisoners everywhere, *I’m* one of the few that’s blazing the trail, showing people how time can be better …

What Does Life Look Like? by Christopher Havens

A few months back, I was asked by a friend about what life looks like for me in prison. This was my answer. I’m sharing this because my answer today would be much different. Events have been occurring for me, one after the other that bring me to the realization that there really are no …

Reflections of a Killing by Christopher Havens

There are so many things I wish I could have done differently. When I was in the court room I was a smug and remorseless wretch. But I’ve thought about this for years and years. Not a day goes by that I don’t reflect on the past so that I may work to never make …

On Dropping Out of School by Christopher Havens

I started high school in Washington State. Unfortunately, I was suspended early on for causing a panic in the computer labs. I wrote a macro and made all the text on the computer screens dance around the screen. Nobody knew how to fix it, and so they called a group of technicians. They didn’t find …

The Root Problem by Christopher Havens

I began using drugs at about 14 years of age, and I remember exactly why I did it. It was because I wanted to fit in with a certain girl. I suppose the root of my biggest problems was that I wanted to fit in. I was never very good in my social interactions while …