22 days post-release and I feel fine. Vanilla ice cream, beef, work out whenever I want, meet people for luncheons and Zoom calls, have 3 devices going at once and thinking to myself “I legitimately need this other thing too”. I feel the stress of myself more than anything, I don’t feel the world is overwhelming and I don’t have serious fears of what’s out here. Things are wonderful.

I have never felt more supported in my life if I am going to be transparent. Success, therefore, is a state of mind. I feel successful.

I also feel like it might be time to begin talking about my prison experiences. So many of them I have held onto due to fear of repercussions from the prison or someone else. But I am going to finally begin to let go of them, talk about them. Some of them may be scandalous, some not so much. Either way, I am going to unload the burden of secrecy.

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With Love

Ruth Utnage